My Birthday Cards!
Wahoo! I made another complete revolution around the sun. That was hard work, earth is freakin’ wild!
I didn’t do as many positive creative acts as I started the day wanting to do, but I did what I was meant to. I woke up, literally, asking: what is my purpose?
I spent some alone time with my deck meditating on that question. It led me ultimately, to writing this birthday reflection & sharing it with you all.
Birthday Cards: Root, Stem & Seed
[or, Past, Present & Future]
Healing, Enlightenment, Renewal
For me, the past, present, future concept is my most common intent when doing a deep dive with my personal check ins, reflections, meditation, prayer…these are all the same things for me spiritually. It’s not always cards and it’s certainly not cards every day.
My spiritual practices are as vast as my creative practices because they are one and the same…and they change [and remain the same] like the cosmos.
I ask, “who, what, where, when, why” a lot. My heart knows what questions to ask when indeed to ask them, or I wouldn’t need to think them to begin with! They would never cross my mind if it wasn’t on my path.
Example, where was I, where am I, where can I go from here? Who was I, who am I, who can I be?
Past, Present, Future…
You’re smart, you get it.
Past / Root
The Aloe, Healing. What experiences from my past are influencing my present and why? When I think Healing in terms of my past, I think of moments that I need to heal…I think then on the moments I have been healed. I have experienced both trauma, and redemption. All prior times, I have made it through with a soul as beautiful and valuable as ever. I can return to my past both good and bad from the safety of a more illuminated and aware present. And, I can acknowledge where I am not fully healed and give my attention there.
Present / Stem
The Water Lily, Enlightenment. So then, how can I constructively and positively use the things of my past that caused me pain or suffering, no matter how minuscule they may have been? For starters, no pain or suffering is miniscule. If I felt it, it matters so I owe it to investigate. If our whole house shook from foundation to rooftop, you bet I’d want to know why. This is where Enlightenment lives, it’s turning on the lights in order to see clearly, to move with purpose in willful service to a greater good—not fumbling around in the dark or hiding in the shadows. I can do this by approaching my rawest and most vulnerable parts without shame or condemning myself as a lost cause and I can recognize that to love me is to wish to see me whole, and holy. This is a message worth sharing: enlightenment is illumination, safe passage for all. No one who has truly healed would ever dare withhold the cure.
Future / Seed
The Rose of Jericho, Renewal. Where can I take the lessons I am learning in my present, my experiences and revelations from the here-and-now, and apply them to my long-term plans? Since my ability to heal is linked to my ability to create and vice versa: What then can I create with what I have, right now? How then, do I heal? In the Renewal of the things that make me…me! I can experience this through investing my energy into the things that I’m drawn to: the good things I gravitate towards in the most natural and unencumbered ways. I can look for areas, dreams, projects, thoughts, ideas that were halted because I needed to heal. Cosmically, it’s cashing in that rain check when I was too unwell to enjoy the show. I can heal, learn, start again. Start again, heal, learn. Learn, heal, start again. Heal, start again, learn.
Final Thought
What is my purpose? To heal and be healed, to enlighten and be enlightened, to renew and be renewed.
With so much happening on earth constantly, the majority of things are out of my control entirely, and what is in my control can easily become overwhelming in itself. I meant it when I said living on earth is hard and this place is wild.
Just because I can’t [and shouldn’t] control everything, doesn’t mean there aren’t things I can control. And should. Most of all, I can learn to control my mind, and I can control whether or not I let myself truly heal from things that hurt me. This is my responsibility to myself, if I ignore it, it will become the problem of my community. I can control breaking cycles. I can control myself from causing perpetual harm. And I can always start again, because I am always worth rehabilitating.
About My Deck
I’m getting close to the halfway mark in selling out of the 1,000 copies I ordered. I sat aside one copy for myself to keep, but I’ve decided not to open my own copy, it’s a time capsule.
I do however have a few “tester” decks, which is what I’m demonstrating with here.
The Deck is Out & Available Now!
You can get a copy right here on my website!
The path to creating this deck was long, unexpected, and at times strenuous…but it was good. And worth it. And I don’t believe I could have made it, if I wasn’t meant to make it. It was part of my purpose, my destiny, my calling to be a conduit bringing a message of inner peace and self acceptance/actualization.
A few years ago when I was researching, illustrating and writing, I thought that would be the hard part! Turns out, that was the fun part! Woomp woomp!
Now I sit here saying, the selling part is the hard part you beautiful, beautiful sweet little idiot baby girl.
I’m not a very good capitalist and I’m not wired to be a cutthroat business woman! I just want to share my art and help people be kinder to themselves, the planet, and the other inhabitants of our little blue rock.
If you’d like to order a copy of my Oracle deck for yourself or a loved one, it’s available here on my website until it sells out!
